What do you do with a grief that has no grave? Pamela D. Marshall did something most women never dare — she named it. This is the story of what she named the child she never had, and how that truth became the beginning of everything.

In the weeks following December 29th, my world had grown very small. I had been home with what I came to call the flu 5.0, a virus that settled into my body, clouded my thinking, and drained my strength in ways I wasn’t prepared for. Some days the brain fog was so thick I had to read the same paragraph again and again, determined not to let the words slip away from me. Other days, simply standing up felt like a decision that required negotiation. In the midst of that healing